Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Waiting, what's up with that?

It’s been awhile. I know. It’s been rough. It’s hard to write when days are full of emotional roller coasters. Then add the full schedule of homeschooling life…and that brings us to today, 4 months since the last post.  Waiting’s not easy. I’m not good at it. Although, I think I’m getting better at it. Well, moving on… I read another blogger call this adoption waiting process “Waiting Purgatory.” That’s about how I feel. We wait, still no girl.

Moldova is now finished with their new adoption law changes. What does this mean exactly? I don't know exactly. No one seems to know exactly. But, we are pleased that the process is done & referrals should be coming in again soon.

Christmas is coming. It’s unlikely (highly unlikely, but you see I still hold it possible in my mind)  that she’ll be home. I’m still holding out hope that we may get the call before Christmas. Would that make it easier or more difficult? The problem is- I FEEL ready. I feel like I’m ready for all of this to happen today, right now to be honest (ring phone, RING!)  But, God’s not moving any faster. Her bed is ready, the sandbox is ready, clothes in different sizes are ready,Christmas gifts from last Christmas & now this upcoming Christmas are ready. Aren’t we ready?

I packed away winter clothes thinking “Next time I unpack these clothes, maybe she’ll be home.” Summer ended. I packed away summer clothes assured “When I unpack THESE clothes, she’ll be home!” Yes, it’s the clothes…unpacking winter clothes won’t bring her home but, YES it’s the unpacking of the SUMMER clothes!!!  But, alas, I’ve unpacked winter & summer clothes several times now…still no little girl in that 4th bed. So, we wait. We wait & I dream about what it’ll be like when that phone does ring. What will I say? What will we do next? How fast can I get there!!! Then the thought occurs to me. Have I thought about today? What are the plans for today, Lord? What about today. Yes, waiting is hard. But, I am thankful that I have today…girl or no girl.