Tuesday, June 26, 2012

A Surprise Call!

The day finally came when we were to speak w/ our program coordinator. I was very anxious, but hopeful that she had just spoken w/ the orphanage director in Moldova. Quickly, we realized that nothing significant had changed. There would be no little girl for us in the near future. Corbin then asked the question that would change everything..."what about Russia?" we had discussed Russia a number of times. Originally, we had some fears, which led us to Moldova. The subject came back up a number of times, but we still felt that Moldova was where we were supposed to be. "Well, if you're interested in changing your paperwork to Russia, we have a 7 year old girl who is available right now... & she has a 4 year old brother." I can't truly remember the words that were said next. We both looked at each other unsure who would utter the first word. Ummmm, yeah. Yeah, right? Yes, I think we're interested. Can we call you back? After 5 minutes of smiling, giggling & staring at each other we could hardly get more words out of our mouths but yes. We called her back. Yes!



In an instance, our world changed, just as it had w/ the announcement of our other children before. I had hoped when this journey began that things would progress quickly & we might be able to adopt twice. As time past, it looked as though that would not happen. Now, everything was happening all at once.

Twelve years ago, when I found out that I was having twins, I was ecstatic! I told people "the only thing better than having one baby, is having two babies!" I still feel the same way. The paperwork begins again!



Saturday, June 23, 2012

Time for a change?

When we began this adoption journey we felt led to the country of Moldova. We  moved ahead w/ the hopes of bringing home a little girl. As the months went by, we would cycle through feelings of hope & despair. But, we still felt that we were to wait for things to move in Moldova.

When the 2 year point hit, our hopes fell again. It seemed to look like another summer would come & go, another Christmas would be spent with her not here. Although Corbin & I both shared these feelings, no words about them were spoken. We went on w/ life, as we have done in the past. We made plans for this & that. We began to feel as if this adoption journey might never be completed.

Then one morning Corbin woke up & said "I think we need to look at other options." It was the dreaded comment that I knew in my heart was coming. We made plans to talk w/ our program coordinator after the weekend. In the meantime, we prayed. What were we supposed to do? I felt a deep sadness & mourned what I thought would be the end of a dream.